Good Memory & The Memories We May Miss

This was taken when my Shiny Silver & I went on vacation to South Fork, Colorado in July of 2014.  We had such a wonderful time.  There was such beauty everywhere we looked!  I'm surprised I didn't get whiplash!  This is one of over 500 photographs I took that week.  We actually walked out to the left cliff of the waterfall that you see here in the photo.  The view was breath-taking... Both from this view and the view looking down to the boulders below.  God's Hand is amazing.  The simple joys that He places among us that most us aren't able to see.  Why don't we?  Do we stay on the well-traveled path that has been built up with skyscrapers?  Are we absorbed in our phones while walking down the street and miss the gorgeous butterfly that we follow for a block?  Are you so closely watching the feed on your social media pages that you miss the handsome guy/pretty gal smiling at you waiting for you to see them?  Are we missing the moments that give our lives meaning and definition?

I loved being in Colorado and being able to set down my phone and simply enjoy all the moments.  I enjoyed being able to savor the time with Shiny Silver.  I have time with him everyday, but I take those moments for granted.  I get caught up in the technology.  I get caught up in wasting moments.  They don't have to be big like this waterfall; they can be shared over a morning's cup of coffee.  Let's take a few minutes out of the social media and put it back into our relationships that are right in front of ourselves.  They define our lives and who we are as individuals. There is the good stuff.

Wake, Work, Sleep, Repeat

I wake up and start getting ready for work.  I go to work and work my butt off.  I go home, eat dinner, watch our nightly shows and go to sleep.  I repeat the process.  

Now don't get me wrong I love my job.  It is the routine of the daily life, work is routine in the fact that it is routinely full of "interruptions" called work.  M.E. I need this.  M.E. I need that.  But, oh, the everyday monotony is trying.  Especially with all the stress right now.  I love my Shiny Silver but when do we get to enjoy being together? There's not much time in the morning to do anything but have a cup of coffee, watch the weather and start getting ready for the day.  At work, it is rare that I get even 5 minutes of uninterrupted time to work much less to do anything like schedule a dental appointment. After work I either go straight home to have dinner waiting for me or to start on dinner.  We watch our TV shows while eating, then we go to bed.  On our days off, we usually get contacted at least once or twice by work for one thing or another.  And we usually are needed here or there by someone for something or another and it is rare that we get to do something just because we want to.  It is a rare thing that we can just leave town.  One or both of us usually need to be close by work "Just in Case."  I. Am. Exhausted.  You can probably hear it in my words.  With the time and proximity constraints, how can the monotony be broken up?  How can the joy of life be brought back in to the day to day?  How can we even simply enjoy our days off work?  Maybe it is because it is wintertime and the daylight hours are still few.  Maybe the joy will naturally resurface with the warmer weather... Time will tell.  But what do I do until then?  How do I bring some joy back into our everyday lives?  Oh my gosh!  This sounds so depressing!  We are happy together it's simply a problem of stagnation & stress.  I just feel a need to liven things up.  Suggestions are welcomed!  

Cabin Fever? Could be it.  But anyway... Ideas?  Attack randomly with a toy gun.  Done that.  Will do that, again.  Index cards left with short Thank You/I Love You notes. Done that.  Will do that, again.  

As I sit here with my fingers poised over the keyboard, thinking about possible ways to find joy in my everyday life, I find I already basically know what to do.  One of the easiest ways for me to find joy is to act like a kid.  Go play on a swing set.  Go on an adventure hike through the woods.  Play chase with the dogs.  Then we come back to Time.  But what's more important.  How do I find the balance?  Some things will be easier when our situation changes, but it won't solve everything.  But things like being able to play with a dog in the backyard in the evening will most definitely be easier.  Gardening will be easier.  Going for a walk will be easier.  Time.  Patience.  Deep breath.  This, too, shall pass.  For now, I shall look at my Shiny Silver and smile.  

Can I Create Time???

Time. "Time flies." "Where does the time go?" "Just in time."

I find myself in need of more hours in the day... in need of more time. I find myself pondering the various movies that portray the use of clones and I think to myself, "I wonder how many clones I could have of myself before they would be too screwed up to be of any use.... Probably just 2..." lol

Work is really the main cause of this particular topic, as I have so many projects and tasks on my plate that 24 hours just doesn't seem to be near enough time in a day. Laundry- who needs clean clothes? Oh wait! I'm supposed to set an example! Food? I usually just eat one meal a day... Dinner... At around 9pm. Exercise? Does getting up 90+ times a day to my name being called out count? What about crawling around on the floor looking for that screw that came loose? But I am very fortunate that I am not alone in this journey of mine. I do have a Shiny Silver called Dean who is the other half of my team when it comes to things like clean clothes and a warm, filling meal at the end of a long, hard day. He also helps me find other things to use (like pickles) when I can't find the screws that came loose! Dean gets me laughing at the humor in the most stressful of days. God has most definitely blessed me with a "skipping rock."
 To Him and for him I will be eternally grateful. 

But as for time... I have found outlets are GOOD. Good for charging phones. Good for charging tablets. Good for COFFEE! But seriously, we all need a place to be able to express ourselves and writing is something that I used to do a lot when I was a bit younger. Lately, I've found myself craving that feeling in my heart when I'm able to put the words and randomness in my head down on page. There is no other feeling like it. But WHEN do I have the TIME? I have to MAKE the TIME. HA! Back on Topic. It's no wonder I titled the blog Randomness... There are so many conflicting theories out there when it comes to managing one's personal life and one's professional life but what happens when a person works 50+ hours a week? What happens when you're in a position when you are never truly off work? How do you get your R & R? How do I not let my work suffer? How do I make better use of the little time I have with my Shiny Silver? I am in search of this balance and this is my journey.

"Time is what we want most, but what we use worst." - William Penn